Confessions of a Cheating Heart

Loving someone takes a lot of courage. Love can turn your world upside-down. It can give you unexplainable reasons to be happy, and unexplainable sadness. When you love, you’ll get hurt... My name is Maxie, Maxie Harris; and this is my story. I first felt love when I’m in fifth grade. I met my super crush, Haldrid Peterson. 

He’s an athlete, member of our football team. He lives across the street where I live so I usually see him in the morning whenever the bus picks me up for school. Whenever I visit our school library, he sits right next to me. I remember the first time we met, it may be a bit embarrassing but it was definitely unforgettable. I was sipping my milkshake which my mom prepared for me when I was about to ride the bus, I didn’t notice the steps I’m taking, I accidentally slipped, I dropped the milkshake and it was all over me. A guy handed me handkerchief and it was him. His warm smile gets stuck in my head, our eyes met and suddenly I felt an electrifying feeling all over my body then, “Hal! Get in the bus.” It was Zack Edwards, his teammate and best friend. He helped me stand up and wipe the milkshake, “Are you alright?”, he said. “Yes, I am. Thank you.”, I replied, my voice is shaking and I couldn’t move. “Be careful next time, and... watch your step.”, he winked at me then he got in the bus. After that moment, I couldn’t stop thinking of him. All I knew is that I want to see him more. Our worlds never crossed again because he stopped riding our school bus. His father insisted to send him to school, so I decided to focus on my study and be the best of the best.

During seventh grade, I met Chuck Stewart. Chuck is the coolest gay best bud I could ever have. We hang up most of the time and he is the one who taught me how to take care of myself. Because of Chuck, I became a cheerleader, and here I met Frida Campbell. We weren’t that close because I knew he had a crush on Hal too and because after doing some routines, I am dying to see Chuck and we’d hangout in his place or mine. Boys are dying to go out with me but I usually refused to. Until such time that Hal and I, met again. I don’t know if it’s my fate to be embarrassed first but this time, when I am about to leave the school hall, I am having ice cream then suddenly a soccer ball hit me and the cream messed my shirt, he rushed to me and said:

“Hey, I am so sorry...”, then I didn’t heard the next sentences he uttered, Me, not looking at him then; thinking he can still recall the milkshake incident, didn’t spoke a word; not even one. Then he started to put out his handkerchief and wipe the ice cream all over my chest, wait; my chest! I started to feel awkward then again, our eyes met. “Still on my breasts?”, I said. “Oh! I... I am so sorry.” I saw somehow he was humiliated. “No, no, don’t think I did it on purpose,” He said then I nodded. “Haldrid.”, he said. “And you are?”, he continued. “Maxie. Maxie Harris.”, So we’re officially introduced. “Hmm, so Maxie, you want to hang out? With me? As my apology for doing such action, beautiful lady.”, 

After that day, Hal and I get along and we get to know each other more. He’d send me gifts, mostly chocolates because he knew it is my favorite; he is consistent.

One evening, he phoned me and said he was outside my house. I went out and I’m surprised to see him. “What are you doing here?” I said. “I just want to see you Max.”, “We were together the whole day Hal.”, “Yeah, yeah I know. But... Max, From the moment I first saw you, I knew it was you, when we’re in fifth grade...”, “Fifth grade? You knew it was me?”, “Of course, how can I forget. Maxie, I like you ever since the first time I met you. I wanted to talk to you but I just don’t know how. Crazy might it sounds, but I think I already fall in love with you.” That evening, Hal confessed his love for me. I did too. 

A week after he confessed his love, I saw Hal outside the school, alone, I approached him and asked “Why are you here? Is there any problem?”, “Yeah. I think so.”, I turned blue. “It’s only a few weeks until graduation. And...”, “And what Hal?”, “And still I don’t know how to ask my girlfriend on a date. I wanna ask you out on a date,” Silly Hal, I laughed. He stood up, “I’m serious Max, will you go out with me, tonight?”, “Of course I would love to.”, “Tonight then, I will pick you up at 7.”, He said then I nodded. That evening, “You are so beautiful Max.”, I blushed, seeing Hal that evening makes me fall in love again, he looked so different. He wrapped his arms around me and said, “I have loved you Maxie, I love you, and I will always love you.”, “I promise to love you, only you from this day forward. I will never leave you Max.”, He added. We graduated with flying colors, holding the promises we made. And up to this moment, he now runs his Mega Corporation and I, designer of the best fashion trends, still live madly in love with each other.

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May 17, 2007

I woke up feeling Hal’s tight embrace. It was like the usual days we spent together; nothing special. I rushed out of the bed and I stepped on blue petals. Hal woke up earlier to set everything up while I’m still sleeping. I followed the petals and here I found a bouquet of blue roses with lots of chocolate around it. Hal loves surprising me. I remember when I reach home, it was dark and I thought he’s arriving late, when I went at the dining room, I was surprised to see him, prepared a candle light dinner for us two. It was my birthday and I forgot. When I was at the office, my coffee mug has a sticky note which has “I love you Maxie. See you tonight”. He’s very thoughtful and he loves to make effort always.

I walk closer to the blue roses, a note says, “Good Morning Maxie, Happy Birthday.” And then again, I almost forgot. I rushed to the bathroom and showered. Then wore my favourite blue dress, then my phone rang. “Hello sweetheart. Happy Birthday!”, It was Zack’s voice. “See you at work then”, he continued. Yes I am having an affair. Not because I don’t love Hal anymore. It was me and not him. It just happened and I just can’t get out.

I left a note for Hal which says, “I saw the gifts, thank you Hal. Call me when you get up.” Chuck knew that I’m having an affair with Zack. At first he didn’t approve of it, but on supports what I’m doing because he can’t make it stop. “You played with fire Max, be ready for any consequences on your actions.”, Chuck said.

I reached the office but still there’s no phone call from Hal. Somebody knocked and entered hurriedly. “Zack.”, “Finally seeing the hottest woman in town; Ms. Harris.”, He said then I laughed. We we’re making out when my phone rang,

It’s Hal. “Hey”, I said. “You in office?”, “Yeah.”, “I’m here outside.”, “Y-you’re here outside my office?”, “Yes.”, Zack move away from me, he hang up then the door opens. “Hey baby.” Hal said. I didn’t notice how obvious I am that I panic when the door opened then I turned pale. “You look pale. Are you sick?”, he hurriedly rush onto me to check if everything’s fine.  “I’m fine.”, “Hey Hal, how are you buddy?”, Zack said. “I’m good, so you’re checking on someone here? Ah... I mean something.”, “Ah no, actually I came here to visit Maxie. It’s her birthday and I came to give her this.”, he said then put out a rectangular box. I extended my hands to reach for the box and opened it. It was a bracelet.

“How thoughtful of you Zack, you didn’t even had the time to visit me at my office.”, Hal exclaimed. The room was filled with silence. “I’m just kidding.”, he continued. Then he laughed. “I have to go, I just came here to remind Maxie that we will be having a dinner date tonight. We’ll I guess I’ll pick you up at 8.”, Hal said then kissed me on my forehead then he left. I couldn’t move. Then I wished I could pop out whenever I’m stuck on situations like this. “I think he knows.”, I whispered. “Shhh. So what if he knows. Then break up with him and be with me.”, Zack replied.

“I can’t leave Hal”, “You’re fooling yourself Maxie. It’s time to end your miseries. You wouldn’t have an affair if you still love him the way you do back when we’re on seventh grade. Or should I say you’re not happy anymore with Hal. Give yourself a time to think. See you tomorrow and I hope you’ll enjoy your date tonight.” After Zack left, I phoned Chuck. “Hey Girlfriend, How’s your day?”, He said. He noticed soft sobs that I couldn’t help I burst into tears. “Hey tell me what’s wrong.”, he continued.

“I think he knows Chuck. I think he knows,” I said. “There you go, I told you to stop seeing Zack and now what, It’s you who’s suffering more, Isn’t it? You never listen to me. It’s time for you to decide Maxie. If you still want to be with Hal, or you want to be with Zack.” Then I hang up. I kept myself busy and make me not to think about Hal and Zack. But I just can’t help it.

 I reminisce those days I am with Hal, loving me selflessly and unconditionally suddenly I saw Zack’s face, making love with me. Then again I saw Hal, I took a few deep breathes, and then it was Zack again. Suddenly I noticed a tear fell from my eyes.

It was 8:15 but still Hal is not calling me if he’s already waiting at the lobby. I fix my things then left my office, I took the elevator, and still I’m not myself. I checked my phone to see if there are text messages or any missed calls. It’s already 8:30, but still no sign of Hal. My phone beeped and I opened the message, it’s Hal. “I couldn't pick you up anymore. I’m still here at the office, I’ll see you at Royal Gardens.”, I took a cab and arrived at Royal Gardens,

I was surprised to see Hal at the entrance. I walk towards him and he hugged me. He knew i love the place so he rented it and it’s just the two of us there. We took our dinner and he never opened what happened earlier, or anything about Zack.

While we we’re eating, he took my hand, looked into my eyes and said “Maxie, I don’t know what exact words to say for me to express how I feel for you,” he held me tighter. “Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control.” I started to chill, I’m nervous. “I get the best feeling in the world when you say hi or even smile at me because I know, even if it’s just for a second, I’ve crossed your mind.”, he’s closer. “Today I caught myself smiling for no reason… then I realized I was thinking about you.”, he stood up and kneeled. And again, I can’t move. “I wish I could give you everything, but I hope that this ring is enough,” “Will you marry me”, he added. I don’t know what to say, my heart beats like a drum, faster and faster and I think it will explode. “I... I... I can’t.”, It just came out. “I woke up one morning realizing that I’m in love with someone else. I, I just stop loving you Hal.”, I added. “Is it Zack?”, he said and I was shocked. “I was outside your office 10 minutes before I called you. I know everything, I saw everything.”, He continued. I was speechless and I don’t know what to say. “Seeing you in the arms of another man is killing me. And it hurts me more thinking what I have done wrong for loosing you.” Tears fell from my eyes. “I love you ever since seventh grade. All I want is for you to be happy, if he’s the one who makes you happy, I’m letting you go.”, he said blinking back his tears. He turned his back on me then he left.

That same evening, I shut my phone. Went home, lock myself in my room and cried a lot. I can’t explain but I’m hurting too. Seeing Hal hurt for the first time tore me into pieces. Hal went at the nearest bar, miserable. He’ so drunk and lifeless.

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May 18, 2007

I woke up at 8. My head is heavy, maybe because of crying too hard last night. I noticed a guy beside me, sleeping in my bed. Maybe it’s Hal, he smells like alcohol which made me think he’s drunk. Then I recall what happen last night, it couldn’t be Hal because I dumped him yesterday. He moved then he uttered my name. When he noticed I was half awake, he stood up, it was Zack! And he was naked! I looked under my sheets and I was naked too. I looked at him and said “Did we have sex?”, “Yes, of course.”, “What? How? I mean did you know what happen between me and Hal last night?,”, I stood up and put some clothes on,

“Are you having hang over? Hal? You mean Haldrid Peterson? I didn’t know you two are acquainted.”, Zack exclaimed. “What the hell are you talking about Zack! He’s my boyfriend and I dumped him yesterday.”, “Are you on drugs? You we’re with me the whole time yesterday. Dumped your boss? Come on Max, I think you’re watching movies too much,” I’m completely becoming confused, “B-Boss? Who, Hal?”, “Yes, your boss, you hate him too much, are you having false presumption?”, I checked my phone’s date, it’s May 18, 2007. I know what happened yesterday. It’s for real. I need to see Hal to prove Zack wrong. “I will see the wedding planner this afternoon, you want to come with me?”, “Wedding planner?”, I replied. “We’re getting married next year. Come on Max. What’s gotten into you? Well, before we got into another fight, you better get ready so you wouldn’t blame me if you come late again for work.”, Zack replied. I couldn’t believe I’m his fiancée. Something’s wrong, I know for sure. I hurriedly left my house to see Chuck, I phoned him yesterday so I know he could help me out. I called him a million times but he doesn’t answer. I ring the bell and he opens the door. 

“Chuck!”, then I hugged him so tight. “So you finally showed up after you accept Zack’s proposal?”, “Proposal?, Zack?”, “Don’t tell me you don’t know Zack? Your fiancée.”, “I’m really confused.”, “I don’t know what’s gotten into your mind, a month ago you find out Zack was having an affair, and two weeks later you told me you were engaged to that... Urgh! Asshole!”, I’m completely going insane I don’t know what’s going on. “You must’ve been mistaken Chuck, It was me who’s cheating, cheating on Hal.”, Hal? You mean Haldrid Peterson? The Rich guy, plus CEO of Mega mega Corporation?”, “Hal’s my boyfriend.”, “Crazy, he has a girlfriend. How could it be that he’s your boyfriend? You’re so ambitious M. His girlfriend’s name is Frida Campbell.”, “Frida Campbell?”, “Yes dear. Frida; the cheerleader during our high school life, and you caught her having an affair with Zack, in your own house.”, I am speechless. I burst into tears. “No, I just called you yesterday, about Hal and Zack.”, I said. He nodded. “Yes you did, but it’s about Zack, you’re so drunk because Zack told you he’s going to work but then you caught him seeing Frida.”, I left Chuck’s home and went to work, believing that he’s just playing games with me. 

As I rode the cab, I saw Hal’s car, his windows are half closed so I could see his face. I waited for him near the entrance of the bookstore. And I hugged him so tight. “Hey?”, He said then pushed me away. It gave me cold chills then he turned his back on to me. He was pretty upset and asked me,

“Hey, who are you? What are you doing?”, I couldn’t move and I don’t know what to say. My guy didn’t know me. “Do you work here? I’m sorry I’m in a hurry.”, “Wait! I’m Maxie, Maxie Harris?”, “And?”, “My name doesn’t ring a bell?”, “Huh? You see, I have lots of work to do. I don’t have time for this.” He walked right to his direction leaving me alone. I could still see him. He rode inside his car, and then starts his car. I realized I shouldn’t just have to look at him; I have to fight for him, stop this non sense game and make him remember me. 

He drives fast so I ran to chase him. I took a cab and I told the driver to follow him. He stopped at my office. I knew it was his plan, I followed him to see what he’s up to, I was shocked when I saw him rushing to see this red head woman, he hugged her, went closer to her, and kissed her. It was Frida!

 Suddenly, I felt the pain of seeing your guy in the arms of another woman. Holy shit it hurts. Instead of making a scene, I took a cab back to Chuck’s place. I finally believe what Chuck told me this morning. Seeing Hal, landing his sweet kisses to Frida’s lips, I knew then he’s madly in love with her. I knew it because the way Hal look at Frida, that’s the way he look at me. The feeling of being left by the one you love; well I can feel it now. I closed my eyes, reminiscing Hal’s face. He looked different. He looked so in love.

When I reached Chuck’s place, I ran to him and cried. “It really hurts Chuck!”, “I don’t know where you get that story Maxie, but you and Hal were never introduced. Back before when we’re in seventh grade, also not even in college. ‘Cause you’ve never been in college.”, I was surprised, “Never been in college? Me?”, “Zack wouldn’t allow you.”, “What about me being a fashion designer?”, “Are you having midlife crisis, geez M you’re too young for that. You never had been one. After graduation, Zack ask your hand for marriage and you said yes. Up to now you’re on a long, long engagement.”, “You rushed to see me when you knew he’s cheating on you and you look miserable. That’s why I don’t understand why you couldn’t speak up and break up with him.” He continued. I couldn’t believe what Chuck told me. Am I dreaming? If I’m dreaming I want to wake up. That afternoon I went back to office, Frida’s office. I saw Hal went out, flowers in his hands, chocolates and balloons. He entered Frida’s office, maybe he planned to surprise her. A few minutes later, he went out and he looks very upset. 

Ten minutes after Hal left, I saw Zack went out of Frida’s office. I phoned him and asked where he is. I was surprised when he told me he’s doing lots of paper works and he’s at the office. Now I finally get what’s happening. I was in Frida’s shoes. How could I been so insensitive? I am actually experiencing the pain I have caused Hal, and now Frida’s. I cried a lot, I didn’t notice I fell asleep. When I woke up, it’s already 8:30. Frida went out of the room; I knew she’s headed to Royal Gardens where Hal is planning to propose. I have to convince her not to turn down Hal’s proposal. I knew how badly hurt he is and I don’t want it to happen. I rushed to see Frida, “I know how much you hated me since we were in seventh grade but please don’t do anything to hurt Hal. He loves you so much and you mean the world to him. Please Frida.”, I was pretty upset seeing her without any emotion on her face. “Excuse me, who the hell are you to say these things right to my face? I don’t need your opinion. I have my own decision.”

I went at the nearest bar to order a few drinks. After an hour, I noticed a guy sitting right next to me, drinking to death. It was Hal. I took a glance at him, thinking he wouldn’t notice. He walks towards me; sit beside me then attempts to kiss me. I pushed him and I told him he’s drunk. “I apologize for misbehaving, Miss.”, my hands were shaking. “I asked my girlfriend’s hand on marriage... But I think I only made things harder for her. I went at her place and I heard her, crying so hard. It was the first time I heard her cried so hard, and I felt so guilty. Guilty on making her choose between love and happiness. I always knew she was driven and ambitious, so I let her grow in her own ways. I let her do what she wants. I never knew she was seeing another man who used to be my best friend. I just felt it right before I saw her. But I never told her, we never talked about it. I want us to be happy the way we were when we first met each other. But I failed; because I can’t make her happy. I always loved her in a lot of ways I never knew I could. And even up to now, I love her. Even if she’s the reason why I look like shit, I still love her. I talk much hah? I guess I already had too much alcohol.”, he said. I was looking on every tear falling from his eyes. He’s hurting, and it’s because of me. I took his hand and hugged him as tight as possibly I could. “I’m so sorry,” I whispered. Then I left.

I was sitting in the car, remembering every word that Hal said awhile ago. I was pretty upset knowing that I am the reason of every pain he’s been through. I knew things will not fall on what I wanted them to be. All I can feel is that; this is my entire fault. If I never had an affair with Zack, my life wouldn’t be a mess. If only I realized ahead of time this wouldn’t happen. Hal wouldn’t be miserable. As I sat down the couch, I remembered the first time I saw Hal. I was outside the principal’s office; I saw Hal and his face got stock on my head. The milkshake incident, the ice cream spilled over my shirt, the best high school hangout, my hero, my first date, my best friend, my first love.  I now know that I need Hal in my life, I couldn’t live without him. But it’s too late. I knew I could never have him back.

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May 17, 2011 (Present)

I woke up expecting Hal on my side, that everything that happened yesterday was all lies and just nightmares. But I was wrong. I woke up all alone; I somehow accepted my fate, living my life without Hal. I decided to leave, go away and live a new life. I packed my things and I am ready to leave before this day ends.

While packing my things, Chuck arrived. I told him I am leaving and confusion draws his face, “Why so soon? Are you sure you’re alright?”, “I am. I just need time for myself; I need time to fix things up.”, “Alright then, if you insist. But can you do me a favor before you leave? Meet me at Captain Island Resort tonight at 7.”, “Okay, but I have to leave right away.” Our conversation ended up when Chuck hugged me so tight. “Always remember, I’m always here for you M.”, he whispered.

That afternoon after I finished packing, I texted Zack to meet me at the Gansan Restaurant near the beach so it would be convenient for me rushing to the Resort where I will be meeting Chuck. I arrived ten minutes late, I approached Zack and, “I will be leaving tonight Zack, a lot of things happened and I know you would never understand. Things have been difficult for me and I think I’m losing everything I have. I can’t imagine I’m actually saying this, but Zack, thank you. Thank you ‘cause you made me realize how much I have loved someone this much. I know somehow you felt that. Though I know I couldn’t be with him anymore. I also know that I have broken a part of you. And I’m giving you back to her. She needs you. Let her know how you really feel before it’s too late Zack. Don’t make the same mistake I did. I’m sorry Zack. I wish you a happy life.”, I stood up and turned my back on him. “So you already made your choice Maxie. I guess it’s goodbye then.”, He said. “Goodbye.” I whispered.

A few minutes after I left, I saw Frida entered the restaurant. She walks towards Zack. Same spot where Zack and I had that conversation. She looks depressed. “I sacrificed everything just to be with you but I ended up losing everything including myself. I woke up one day hating myself for being so stupid and madly in love with you. But why do I feel that I am the one who’s begging love? I cried every night thinking that one day you’re not mine anymore and I’m hurting Zack. I’m sorry but I can’t do this anymore...”, she stood up holding back her tears.

I arrived at Captain Island Resort at exactly 6:30pm. I was surprised to hear my favorite song, like I was being serenaded, and what surprises me more is seeing Hal standing at the beach platform. I went closer and I asked him, “What are you doing here? Where’s Chuck? I mean I was about to see my friend here but I think I arrived earlier, how are you?”, “He’s not coming.”, “What? But why?”, “Because it’s me who’s waiting for you, Maxie. Not Chuck.”, he said and I don’t know what to say. I can’t believe it was Hal and I’m completely speechless. He escorted me near the shore, he prepared a candlelight dinner for two and the scene looks familiar to me except the ambiance and the venue.

While we were having dinner, “Is there something wrong Max?,” I looked at his eyes, I began to assume that this might be a second chance for me and Hal, a second chance where in I will be true to myself and to him. He stood up. “Can I have this dance?”, he said. It was the first time he asked me to, so I said yes. “I know I made a lot of mess these past few months Max, and I’m really sorry for all the misunderstandings and for my shortcomings.” He said. “Hal, I have something to tell you.”, I said. I am ready to face all my wrong doings, and I guess this is the right time. “I’ve been with another man Hal, and for that, I don’t deserve all of these, your love, your efforts, everything. You deserve someone better Hal.” I continued. “I know Max. I know everything about your affair, about you and Zack.”, “You know everything? Then why are you doing these?”, “I’m doing all of these because no matter how much I hated you, no matter how much I get rid of you, no matter how much pain you gave me, I still end up loving you.”, “Will you still give me another chance to prove that I am worth your love?”, “No...”, he said. “No because you’ve already proven that you’re worth my love since the day we first met. What I’m giving you is the chance to be with me for the rest of your life if you want to.”, he continued. “You mean?”, “Grow old with me.” I then again feel cold chills all over my body.

He kneeled and and presented me a ring, “I can’t imagine a life without you in it. Maxie Harris, Will you marry me?”, I can’t move. “I... I can’t...”, I paused a few seconds, “I can’t live without you Hal. Yes I do. I will marry you.” He hugged me so tight and finally I gave myself a chance living the truth, living a life without regrets.

Meanwhile, back at the restaurant, “Wait!”, Zack said. He hugged Frida tight. “I don’t want you to leave Frida. I know I’m stupid, I’m selfish. And I hurt you so much. I will understand if you will not forgive me, but I love you Frida. And I’m so sorry.”, “You know how much I love you Zack. I have already forgiven you a long time ago.”, “Let’s get married...”, “Now?,” “Right after you graduate from college.” She was so happy, hugged him so tight then they kissed.

Loving someone takes a lot of courage. Love can turn your world upside-down. It can give you unexplainable reasons to be happy, and unexplainable sadness. When you love someone, fight for that love. There are so many stars in the sky only some are radiant enough to be noticed. Among those you choose to ignore is the one which was willing to shine for you forever even if your glance remained elsewhere. True love doesn’t need proof. It’s the heart who can feel what the eyes couldn’t see... Love is seeing yourself through someone's eyes and finding yourself in somebody's heart.

Once you have loved, you will always love. For what's in your mind may escape but what's in your heart will remain forever.

My name is Maxie, Maxie Harris-Peterson, and this is my story.

-THE END-

WO DE YICHAN (MY LEGACY) 2: Revelations

BOOK TWO

CHAPTER I

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Eighteen years passed since the day Jin Ho and Ye Yang’s child was believed to be kidnapped. A lot of things changed including emperor’s relationship with her wife. Li Yuan; Ye Yang’s father, was already fifteen years widowed from his wife Li Yin who passed away due to health issues. Emperor Jin Ho ruled the empire with pride and honor. He developed infrastructures, built shelter for homeless and equal justice for his people. Everyone loved him. He had given his heart and soul to serve his subordinates.

Eighteen years and they never talked about the child who’s next in throne. “The emperor wouldn’t allow it. It’s prohibited.”, says one of the palace servants. Ye Yang was left broken hearted; longing for her lost child.

It was the first day of spring, Tian Lo; a commoner who live a normal life outside the palace, does the usual thing in the morning. He helps his mother; Han Young,earn for a living. She sells homemade pastries and sweet rice, while he hunts for wild animals and sell their meat at the market. He is a good son and wishes for a better life for his mother. “Mother, I am going to the village to sell these meats. I just hope I will earn bigger this time,” “Alright then, be safe my son.” She kissed him goodbye then he left.

Meanwhile, back in the palace, Princess Deng; Jin Ho’s daughter, who yearns for a mother’s love, she grew with a golden spoon and rebel. She seeks for Ye Yang’s attention but ended up being ignored and sometimes reprimanded by her actions. She often sneaks out and takes a stroll outside the palace. But then, she’s always caught in doing so. “You are the runt of this family. You’re a disgrace. Your stubbornness won’t change the way I feel for you,” Ye Yang exclaimed. “Why mother? What did I do for you to do this to me?”, Deng cried. Ye Yang will just look at her, and then walks out.

“What’s the long face, my dear?”,a familiar voice echoed the place. It was the emperor; Jin Ho, trying to cheer his lonely child. She looked at him trying to hold her tears. “You don’t need to tell me, I know. It’s your mother, isn’t it?”, “You mean my stepmother,” “Don’t say that,” “I’m not her child that’s why I am not worth her love, am I right father?”, Jin Ho went closer and hugged his child. “No, it’s not like that. She loves you,” “No one loves me. I’m a burden,” she cried. Jin Ho brushed his fingers on her cheek to wipe her tears, “Shh, you’re not. You’re the most precious thing that ever happened to me. The day I first held you; you were so tiny,” “I am glad you are my father. You make things lighter for me,” then she hugged him again.

“Mother, what’s my father look like?”,Tian Lo asked. “He’s handsome. I remember the day I first saw him. I knew then he’s going to be the man I will love and cherish,” “I wish I had the chance to be with him.”

Jin Ho walks in to his room; Ye Yang is in front of the mirror, combing her hair. “I need to talk to you,” Jin Ho stated. “I know this is all about your child again,” and then he nodded. “Yes. It’s been fifteen years since she came and you never showed her how is it to be loved by a mother,” “I am not her mother. And never will be,” the room was filled with silence, then, “It’s been years; eighteen years,” “Eighteen years and I’m still in pain,” “And still I am paying for that eighteen years? I chose to live my life Ye Yang,” “You chose to break my heart. You left me broken. From the moment that child arrived, we’re done,” “You don’t understand,” “I really don’t understand. I will never understand. And just so you know, I regretted the day I married you.”

“I thought she would understand. My life is miserable; I lost my son, my only heir to the throne. And now, I’m losing my wife; the woman I loved and always will. Your child is all that’s left for me. And I promise you, I will give her the life you dreamt for her,” Jin Ho said talking to Zhangyi's grave. Zhangyi; Deng’s mother, she is rumored to be the emperor’s concubine.

Ye Yang was left in her room, she held a piece of cloth which her son wore eighteen years ago. She cried harder.

Eighteen years ago, “Jin Ho, did they find him?”, Ye Yang asked. “Not yet, I will be joining the search tomorrow morning,” Everyone in the palace is searching for the prince. But there’s no sign of him. “Son, I am worried about your condition. But the empire is at stake. People are complaining. Maybe it’s time for acceptance. He’s gone. Live your life. You still have your wife.”

She cried and cried. She never talks to him for about a month. “I have reasons why I stopped. I had to live longer for our people, for you.”A year after the incident, they all recovered, except for Ye Yang. She’salways locked inside her room, trapped herself in the world of loneliness. One evening, she opened a chest under their bed. She saw a scroll; a scroll that will ruin her marriage. It was a letter;

“Chun Jin Ho,

            I wrote this letter to remind you on what we’ve talked about, my son. I’ve requested you on living with her in one roof; do as what we’ve planned. Make her fall for you. In that way, your marriage won’t fail like what happened to mine. Keep this in mind “Love is not a priority; what’s important is that the marriage is stable with staying power that will balance good energy forces”. Do as what I said and you’ll be well. May heavens bestow you wisdom.

The Great Emperor Chun Ming”

Her world falls apart. She was broken into pieces. Jin Ho entered the room. She went closer to him, and showed Jin Ho the scroll she’s holding. “Why? Why Chun Jin Ho?”, he hugged her tight, tears fall from her eyes. She let go from him and, “You succeeded and your plan went well. Congratulations emperor,” “No, no. It’s not what you think. I must’ve admitted, at first, all was part of the plan. But things changed Ye Yang. It was me who fall in love with you. That’s why I pursued on marrying you. Because it was for real already.”, “You actually think I will be glad hearing those from you? I don’t know what to believe now. Our marriage is all lies.”, “No, don’t say that. It was wonderful. What we have is different. It was something extraordinary. I know you felt it too. It’s too beautiful to just throw it away. You were the one who taught me the value of love,” “It’s too late, Jin Ho. You left me with no choice.” He held her hand, “Don’t let go.” She stepped forward, withdraws her hand from his grip, and then left the room.

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CHAPTER II

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Tian Lo woke up early; he went to the village in a raise for a living. On that same day, Princess Deng escaped from the palace guards and went outside the palace. She’s dressed with a black robe and black turban for a disguise so that people won’t recognize her.

She went downtown, and as she walks down the road, she accidentally slips on a rock and bump into a young man who walks adjacent to her direction. “Are you alright?”, “Yes, I’m fine, I think,” “Here you go,” then he lift her up. They looked in each other’s eyes. They felt something. It was like a connection. “You, you looked familiar to me. Have we met?”, she said. “I believe this is the first time I saw you. New here?”, “Yes, we just moved in, I guess?”, “I suppose you’re rich. You have different clothing,” “Nah! I wish I wasn’t. Anyway, thanks for your help, I’d better be going,” “Wait!What’s your name?” “Princess… Oh! Dengxin,” “Beg your pardon?” “Dengxin, my name is Dengxin.”“Oh! Deng, I like it,” “Ah, it goes on you I guess, excuse me,” “Tell me Dengxin, what would a man have to do to find himself in your good graces?” “Who wants to know?”, she walks fast and he followed her, “Let’s just say a charming stranger?” “This charming stranger seems pretty sure of himself, but he had to know me a lot better than some girl he just met on the street,” “Oh but he’d like to, very much,” He bumps himself in the flower stalls. “Oh no, I’m not sure if I want to meet this stranger,” He fixed the flowers then followed her again. “I doubt if he has any idea on how a girl should be treated,” “Like a princess I suppose.”,

“No. Like a person with kindness and respect,” “You’re not like most girls are you?” “What do you mean?” “Oh nothing, I didn’t mean to offend you.” “It’s alright, it’s just that I have pretty shouts at life,” “So am I,” “Really?” she smiled. “Every day, the same old routine,” “Until you just want to run away,” “and never come back.”, they both exclaimed. She sighed, then “Oh, I’d better be heading back home, they might be looking for me by now,” “I hope I see you again, Dengxin.” Then he turned his back and went to his direction. “I hope to see you again.”, she whispered.

Back in the palace, “Emperor, we found the princess outside the palace,” “You may leave us now.” “Father, I am so sorry for…” “You did it again. You went outside the palace again. How many times am I going to tell you, it’s a dangerous world out there, you might be hurt,” “I can take care of myself father, I’m fifteen years old.”, “What makes you think you can? And if I’m right?, I wouldn’t forgive myself if something bad happens to you. Please do not try to escape from the palace guards Dengxin; never again. Do you understand?”, “Yes father.”

“You’re home early?”, Han Young said. “Yes mother.” “What’s with the face? You look so happy, is there something you want to talk about son? Or should I say someone?” He nodded. “I met a beautiful girl downtown today mother. Her gray eyes, with her brown hair and white complexion, she’s not like the other girls I met, and she’s different.”, “She’s definitely different because she can make you smile that way.”, “I just hope to see her again mother.”

“These are divorce papers, Chun Ye Yang!”, Jin Ho shouted. “I can’t take it anymore. Seeing you make things harder for me,” “Then don’t come to see me, I will give you your own space. But divorce? I will never give it to you. It’s too much. You’re too much.” Silence filled the place. “How can you just throw it all just like that? I’ve been enduring the pain because it was my fault but don’t you consider my feelings in this divorce you wanted? You’re throwing it off my face! You never heard anything from me and now what?; a divorce? Just kill me!” “I expected you’d be over-reacting like that and…” “Over-reacting? You are the one who’s over-reacting. I lived a life for eighteen years, eighteen years of suffering. Do you consider what I feel? I also lost a son. I also suffered like you. But the only difference is I can only count on myself. I have no one to cry on. I was alone in my darkest years. Do you even care if I’m hurting? I tried to be as hard as a rock. But I’m also mourning.”

That night, Jin Ho went to see his father. It was a deep conversation. “I grew up to be a great emperor you wanted me to be. And I am. I had given my people what they always wanted; their convenience. But there’s one thing in life I failed to be; being a husband to my wife. I hate the fact that the man I didn’t want to be is already me now. And I hate you for that, father. I hate you for I’m already like you. And I hate you, for controlling my life. My marriage is a failure. I am a failure,” “Hate me as long as you want Chun Jin Ho. But you still have the time to change the way she feels for you,” “She hates me. And she wants a divorce,” “A divorce? She’s overpowering you now! Tell me you wouldn’t,” “I will divorce her. That’s what she wants,” “Where’s your pride Chun Jin Ho? If you divorce her, it will lead to your misfortune, China will fall,” “It doesn’t matter now, if she wants it, I will give it to her,” “You will regret it son. Give yourself a time to think about it,” Jin Ho went to his room and couldn’t help himself on thinking about Ye Yang; those days when they were in each other’s arms, completely in love. “If this will make her happy, I will let her go.”

The next morning at the palace garden, “I wish I can see him again, I don’t even know his name,” Dengxin whispered. She sneaks out and escaped from the palace guard again. She went downtown to look for the man she met a few days ago. But she failed. She returned in the palace and felt pretty upset. She couldn’t help herself thinking about this young man. She went to her father, “What do you want little Dengxin?”, Jin Ho asked. “Nothing, I just want to ask you father, how was it to be in love?, “In love? My child, you’re still young and why are you asking such question?” She didn’t answer back thus looked at him with her small gray eyes. “Come here, you’re still young for this things and I wouldn’t allow it for now. You see, there’s a perfect time in everything. Go back to your room now my little Dengxin. Have a rest.”

She still wanted to see him, the next day she went outside the palace again, but this time she doesn’t know Jin Ho ordered a palace guard to follow her and look after her. 

She went for a walk then she was surprise to see him. “It’s you again,” Tian Lo said and he sounds excited. “I really would like to see you again,” “I would like too. I’ve been thinking about you since the day you left me at the market with all that meats scattered,” “Oh I apologize. I wasn’t looking to where I’m going,” “Nah! I’m fine; my mother didn’t know what happened anyway. Whew, I’m safe,” then she laughed. “And if your mother knew?”, “Then I’m dead by now.” She looked shocked, and then he added “Nah! I’m just trying to give you a fright,” Then they both laugh. “Want to go somewhere else?” He asked. “Where?”, “Here, come with me. I will show you something,” He brought her in an abandoned garden. “It’s wonderful,” “There’s more,” he grabbed her hands and they went at the upper deck of the garden. “Now look,”

“This is incredible! I can see the palace from here,” “The palace? You live there?” “Oh I’m hungry, is there something we can eat?” “You haven’t answered my question yet,” 

She leaned forward, “Your eyes, they’re wonderful, it’s like I’ve seen them before,” Dengxin said. He leaned forward too, closer and closer. Then he kissed her. “What are you doing?” she asked. “Oh! I apologize for such action. I shouldn’t do that. I’ll find something to eat,” He went at the garden pagoda and found a fishing rod; he went fishing and later cooks the fishes he caught. “Let’s eat,” he said. “About earlier,” “No, let’s don’t talk about it, I didn’t mean to. I’m sorry,” “It’s alright. Apology accepted.”

They spent the whole day together laughing and sharing things about them. “You really must’ve come from a fortunate family,” “Why is it so?” “You talk so different, you even dress different, and your skin looks pale. It looks like…,” “Like what? Tell me,” “Like you’re a princess,” “And if I am, will you go away from me?” “Of course not, you’re my friend. Not everybody gets to meet a princess, for a villager like me, so tell me, you are a princess, aren’t you?” “I wish I wasn’t,” “So you are, your highness,” “No, come on. Don’t call me like that. I thought you were my friend. You don’t have to address me like that. I’m normal too. Nothing’s different; I’m just like everyone else. It’s just that I differ because of the way I talk and my clothing; as you said,” “Alright, you said it anyway. I will be your friend,” “Really?” “Indeed,” She hugged her and showed how happy she was. “Oh I have to go. Its sunset, my father will be mad if he knew I’m going out the palace again,” “Yes, you’d better be going back. He might be looking for you,” “I will be seeing you again, right?” she asked. “I will be here, will be always waiting for you whenever you want to see me,” he replied. “By the way, it’s Tian Lo; name’s Tian Lo, if you want to know,” “I will be seeing you again, Tian Lo,” she said then left.

Back in the palace, the emperor knew that Princess Dengxin escaped and went outside the palace again. The palace guard told him and the emperor waits until his daughter returned. “Oh! Father,” “Where have you been?” “I went for a walk, at the palace patio,” “The patio?, at this hour? You never like it there, aren’t you?” “I… I just wanted something for a change,” “For a change huh? Go to your room and rest, you might be pretty exhausted.” She knew to herself that what she said were all lies. But she had no choice. She knew her father would be upset if she told him she was outside the palace again, with some stranger she just met. She thinks of him all night, his face, his eyes, and the kiss. She couldn’t sleep.

The next day, she waited for the palace guards to have their meeting, it was every morning; palace guards were evaluated by the general. That moment, the princess left and went outside the palace, again. The palace guard followed her too. “Tian Lo?” she whispered. “You made it,” “I did, so what are we up to this time?” “Come with me,” they went at the forest, up in the mountains. “Here we go,” he said. “Here? Are you serious? All I can see is an old tent,” “That same old tent that my father used when he lived here,” “Where is he now?” “He passed away even before I was born,” “Oh, I’m sorry,” “No, it’s alright. I just hope I met him. I go up here if I wanted to feel at peace,” they enjoyed each other’s company. They hang out that day, sit at the fire pit, shared laughter, and shared stories.

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CHAPTER III

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Ye Yang is having a dip at the lake; her beauty fills the place, she remembered the day she and Jin Ho shared love. It was back then, everything was perfect. They were inseparable.

She took a swim, further and further, she accidentally stepped on something pointed, she couldn’t move and drown herself into the water. She was about to lose her breath, then suddenly a man jumped into the water and saved her from drowning. It was Jin Ho. He pumped her chest then she’s back. She felt nauseous, lose her consciousness and fainted. Jin Ho lifted her. He brought her in her bedroom and clothed her. “What are you doing? Are you trying to kill yourself? You made me feel worried.”, He caress her hands and looked at her; still unconscious. “You have to be careful now; I am not always around to watch over you. I loved you ever since the first time I first laid my eyes on you, and I will love you until my very last breath. I will let you go, because I want you to be happy; a life without misery, a life without me. Be safe, my Ye Yang.” He kissed her on the forehead and he whispered goodbye. Then he left the room. She gained her consciousness and somehow felt the kisses on her forehead. All she can remember is that she was at the lake and then now she’s at her bedroom. “It must’ve been a dream.”

He was inside the throne room, a palace guard knocked and “Your Highness, I followed the princess and she’s gone outside the palace again. But this time, they went up in the mountains; the forest particularly,” “Up in the mountains?, Forest? What was she thinking?” He threw the cup of tea; he’s gone mad. “Alert the general and the soldiers, we’re going up in the mountains tonight,” ‘As you wish Your Highness.” Then the palace guard left.

Meanwhile, Dengxin and Tian Lo spend the rest of the day together. Inside the tent, “I deeply express my gratitude in everything you do for me, Tian Lo,” Dengxin said. “It’s alright. I never said this before, Dengxin. I, I don’t know but whenever you’re beside me, I am happy, I feel complete, and if this is what they call love, I think I’m in love with you, Princess.”, “Me too Tian Lo.” “But you are a princess. You are meant for a prince. Not for a villager like me,” “It doesn’t matter. I’m sure my father will understand,” “This is against our tradition,” “If being a princess means not to love you; then I’d rather be not.” He hugged her tight.

“I will go outside to check on something,” he went outside and he was shock to see a man dressed in fine clothing, with gold in it. It was the emperor. “Where’s my daughter? What have you done to her?”, Jin Ho shouted. “I… We were just hanging out your highness, I didn’t mean any harm,” “I don’t need your words young man, where is she?” Dengxin went outside the tent, “Tian Lo, what took you so long?” She said and saw her father, she was shocked and speechless. Jin Ho grabbed Tian Lo and attempts to punch him on the face. “Father, please. Don’t hurt him,” he released the young man from his hard grip, “What you’ve done is a disgrace, Dengxin. You’ve failed me. This is against our law! He will be punished as I say,” Soldiers were about to arrest the young man, “Father I beg you, I won’t go outside the palace, never again, but please don’t hurt him. Leave him alone,” He moved closer to Tian Lo, looked in his eyes, he was struck somehow by looking at him, it seems like he knew him. His eyes, speaks to himself. “Leave him. Let’s go back to the palace.” Says Jin Ho then they left.

They remained silent until they reached the palace. Dengxin breaks the silence. “Father, forgive me. I am so sorry,” “You lied to me, I raised you without your mother and this is what I’ll get in return?, I don’t want you seeing that young man ever again, nor knowing that you went outside the palace. Are we clear?” “I hate this life I have! I don’t want to be a princess, I wish I wasn’t. I don’t like everything I have. I am sick of it!,” He nodded. He looked disappointed on what Dengxin said. “I’m sorry father, I didn’t mean to say that,” “I’m exhausted. It’s enough. You go and get some sleep too.” She ran to her room and cried hard as she could; thinking of Tian Lo.

He went at the palace balcony, Ye Yang is there too. He approached her and “I went over this for weeks. I never knew this day would come, and I am not quite sure what words will I say. I dreamt of a life full of joy and love, where I can share it with you. Be old and hold you in my arms. But it goes different now. I keep in mind that if this means a lot to you, it shall be done. It’s hard though; sleepless nights. But don’t mind about me, everything is settled now. I will not interfere in the life you wanted. Not anymore. You will never hear anything from me. Live happy and be well. You may leave the palace before the sun rises. I guess this is it. We’re done, as you wished. Goodbye then,” he turn his back and about to leave, “Wait!” Ye Yang exclaimed. He continued to walk far from her, holding back his tears. “It’s over.” He whispered. She felt guilt in her heart; somehow she knew he was hurting. But it’s too late to change things now. She walks adjacent from his direction, went to her room and took her clothes, then leave. “Goodbye Chun Jin Ho,”

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CHAPTER IV

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It’s been a week and Jin Ho is still left broken hearted. Dengxin is worried about his father, she went to see him. “Father, I am worried. You haven’t left your room for a week now,” “I don’t want to live, losing her is like dying,” “You cannot be like that father! What about me, I need you. I am sorry for the things I said; the bad things. But please, I am still here father; I will never leave you,” She hugged Jin Ho and he couldn’t hold back his tears anymore, he cried. “I love you father, and I promise never to do things that will disappoint you.”

“I am home mother, I found something, and I think it’s a valuable item. We can trade it for a large amount mother,” It was a golden pendant with a royal symbol engraved on it; which means heaven’s blessing. “Where did you get this?” her face looked shocked. “I found it mother. It was covered with mud, somebody must’ve dropped it,” suddenly, she remembered it was the same symbol engraved on the cloth that Tian Lo wore when he was still a baby. “Mother, are you alright?”, “Of course I am,” Tian Lo wore the pendant. “I think I saw this symbol before, ahh I knew it, the emperor’s robe.” “The emperor? You met him?,” Han Young said. “Remember the girl I’ve been telling you? She’s a princess. Daughter of the emperor, and yes I met him.” “You know the law my son, you might be killed. Stay away from this girl Tian Lo,” “But I love her mother,” “It’s forbidden,” “I know. But the emperor seems to have a good heart,” “Don’t give in easily, that emperor is a tricky one, I know,” “Why mother? How can you say that? You don’t even know him,” “I know him very well, and he is the one responsible for your father’s death. He killed your father; with his own hands. That woman you love is the child of the man who killed your father; forget what you feel for her.” “I will revenge my father’s death,” Tian Lo said holding the pendant in his hands; wanting to crash it.

Three days passed, Tian Lo couldn’t forget all about Dengxin. But on the other side, he felt remorse and wanting to avenge his father’s death. “I shouldn’t love you anymore Dengxin. Your father is the reason why I haven’t able to see my father. He killed my father. He caused my mother in terrible pain.”, Tian Lo speaks in his mind. His mind is full of thoughts about his father and Dengxin. He’s confused; totally out of his mind. He walks slowly and not looking to her direction, he accidentally bumped into a woman; about years of his age older to him, rushing and panting, “Oh I’m sorry young man, I didn’t mean to, I’m sorry I’m in a rush,” he looked at her and suddenly her face seems pretty familiar and feels like he knew her before. But his mind is full of different thoughts for him to add up another. He just ignored her and continued walking towards his destination.

Back in the palace, Emperor Jin Ho stayed at the terrace near his room. He enjoyed the smell of fresh air; shut his eyes and recalls Ye Yang’s face in his mind; her hair, her lips, her nose, her long brown hair, and her eyes, “Her eyes. I knew it; her brown shiny eyes just like that young man’s eyes. Could it be? Is it possible that he’s my son?”, Jin Ho said. These thoughts were all left in his mind. Meanwhile, downtown where Ye Yang decided to live, she looked at the stars, wondering about his dear son, “I still believe that you and I will be together again, my son.”

 

“It’s been forever Chun Jin Ho. He’s just a commoner you had met in town. How could it be possible that he’s your son?” Chun Ming exclaimed. “A commoner?, And what if you’re wrong and I’m right? He might be the missing heir to my throne; my son. He’s been kidnapped by that lunatic concubine of yours,” “Wait for a moment,” Chun Ming handed over Jin Ho a piece of cloth with Royal seals and symbols. “I believe this belongs to your child…” he reached for the cloth and couldn’t believe what he is seeing. “…I found it eighteen years ago. I decided not to show this to you because I don’t want to ruin the future of China if you will be living on resentment. It will poison your mind, your soul, your life.” “I already am father. Losing the only person I love with all my life is just like living on resentment.” Jin Ho walks out of the room, sadness and pain draws his face. It was then like the way he was eighteen years ago.

It’s been a few weeks after Chun Ming’s revelation; Jin Ho wasn’t like he used to be. He was miserable. The Great China he built with long years is drifting apart, as well as his relationship with his daughter, Dengxin. He ruined everything that was left for him.

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CHAPTER V

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Three years passed, every hearts moved on from all the pain they’ve been through, the emperor loses all the greatness he earned; including the empire’s fortune.

Ye Yang get used to her life being a commoner. A lot of things had change. Thoughts crossed her mind, silk clothing, jewels, escorts, classy foods, and… Chun Jin Ho, the emperor. “He used to be the man I love; the only man I loved…”, she said while sitting in a flimsy, twiggy chair. “…I wonder how he is now.” Ye Yang continued.

Meanwhile, Tian Lo lived his life with his mother, Han Young. Living his life away from the palace; Mending his broken heart. He became stone hearted, vindictive and pithy. “Mother, I decided to leave this place,” he said, Han Young was shocked and speechless. “I want to live a life facing those people who hurt me, us. I don’t want to hide anymore. I will avenge my father’s death.”, “I will come with you my son. I won’t let you go, all by yourself. I couldn’t forgive myself if something happens to you.”, she cried and hugged him tight. “No mother. I have to do this, all by myself. I couldn’t afford to lose you too mother. I won’t let it happen. I won’t.”

That evening while Han Young is asleep, Tian Lo prepared himself to leave; leaving a note for his mother. He stood up and left. Rain starts to fall from heaven, Han Young woke up and saw the note that Tian Lo wrote for her. It says:

”Mother,

Leaving you is the hardest thing I could ever done in my life. I planned to do these three years ago when you told me the truth about my father’s death. I trained myself to be strong and firm to protect myself from our enemies. And I think now is the perfect time to do the things as what I planned. I will make him pay for what he did; for ruining our family, slowly and painfully. Forgive me mother. Until we meet again.

Tian Lo.”

Weeks passed and Dengxin, longing for her long lost love, reminiscing the times she shared with him while enjoying fresh air at the palace garden. His eyes, his lips, everything about him are still fresh in her mind after three long years. “Can I join you?” Jin Ho bumped in. She looked awhile at then shirked at him. “I’ve decided to hire someone to look after you; to keep you safe from the rebels around the palace, away from harm.”, “After all you finally cared father. All these years all you do is to think of your wife and your son! You don’t know how miserable I am by having the feeling of being invisible to you father! The feeling of being ignored; you don’t know how much pain I have. You don’t know because you never asked.” He stood up, “He will be in-charge of taking care of you. Have a rest.”, then he left.

She went upstairs and she was surprised to see a man standing near her room. “I expected you will be arriving tomorrow morning.”, she said. “The emperor insisted, your highness.” He replied. She walks towards her room without looking at him. He then saw her beauty and fineness.

Alone in his room, Jin Ho felt bad on what Dengxin said earlier. “I don’t know what I am doing now. Forgive me Dengxin.”

The next day, “Good Morning Princess.”, he smiled. “What seems to be good in the morning?”, she replied. “Three reasons.”, “Three reasons?”, “First, you see me. Second, I see you. And lastly, you’re still given another day to do the things you want to do. This day is way far too different from the other.”, “Arrogant commoner.”, “Arrogant commoner? Me?”

“I know you've been distant whenever you see me. I have a lot of shortcomings, delinquency, and fallacies. I have failed you my child. And I won’t blame you for hating me 

The next morning, Chun Ming gathered the soldiers at the palace patio. He is planning to do the search for the missing prince. Soldiers fall in line and he instructed them on what to do. He noticed a soldier; about six feet tall, with good features caught his eye to be his mole. With his intimidating physical attributes, he could be the one Chung Ming is looking for. He caught the soldier’s attention and wished to speak with him privately. “What can I do for you, your highness?”, “I will be asking you a favor, I am promoting you as General, and lead the troop in one condition.” “Your highness, it might be too much. The General?; what will he say if he knew I will be taking his place?” “Silly. Don’t underestimate me. He would be promoted as well, as the Senior General. But prior to this, every time you will be deployed to search for the prince, all reports must be coming from you. And you will report only to me.” “What about the emperor, your highness?” “It’s all up to me now when it comes to this. Are we clear?” “Clear as crystal your highness.” The soldier left. “I won’t let that commoner ruin what I’ve planned several years ago. Everything will be falling into my own hands,” Chun Ming rejoiced.

A few months after, they still couldn’t find the commoner. 

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One night, Jin Ho decided to be alone and not to be disturb, he was watching the stars, “I will find you, my son. I will.”, he whispered to himself. On the other hand, Tian Lo decided to go out and took some fresh air, “Father! They will pay for what they did to you. I promise.”, he cursed.

It was the first day of fall, Deng Xin went outside, feeling alone again and miserable. She noticed Tian Lo, playing with a porcupine on his hands. He snuggled and pet the animal. Then, it bit him. Deng Xin giggled. He then noticed that she’s watching him. “I see someone’s stalking who, wanna hold it?”, she shook her head and said “No,”

“Come on,”

“Alright then.”

“Hey, you should laugh more often, you look more beautiful.”

She blushed and pet the porcupine, “Aw! It bit me!”, she shouted. “Let me see, don’t move.” She looked at him and their eyes met. Then they both giggled, it was a different Deng Xin, full of laughter and love. “We should do this more often.” She whispered.

“Huh?”

“More often. You said I should laugh more often. So let’s do this more often.”

“My pleasure, Your Highness.”

They hang out together, shared their laughs, went to different spots inside the palace. One evening, they decided to go outside the palace and spend the moment just the two of them.

“I am grateful having you by my side Chan,” she uttered. (He used the name Chan to hide his real identity as Tian Lo) “Three years ago I found myself in the loving arms of my father, but now, I don’t know him anymore. It feels like there’s a wall between us. A big wall.”, she sighed.

Then a shooting star fell from the sky. “A shooting star, look.”, He said.

“Make a wish.”, she whispered.

“I don’t believe mine will come true.”

“Go ahead make a wish.”

“Then my wish is to make all yours come true.”

She smiled then the place was covered with silence.

“What’s your wish then?” He asked.

“To meet the love of my life,” “Again.” She added.

“Again?”

“Yes, again. I met him when I was fifteen.”

“What happened then?”

“He’s gone. I never get to see him again. My father wouldn’t allow me. But he’s always here.” She pointed her heart.

“What if you’ll never get to see him again?”

“No!” She shouted. “I’m sorry. I will see him again. I will. I will wait for him.”

“Guess you really love him huh?”

He stood up, “Let’s go back inside. It’s getting cold here, you might get sick.”

She nodded. He knew it was him she’s talking about. He went to his room, shut his eyes but couldn’t sleep. No matter how much hatred he had inside, it was his love for Deng Xin that holds him back on avenging his father’s death. “I love you too.” He whispered.

The next morning, he decided to bring Deng Xin to where he stays. “Why are we here Chan?” her innocent face looking at Tian Lo’s. “I am here to tell you something important.” “You look so serious, you aren’t leaving right? Are you?” “No, no. I’m not going anywhere.” “The boy you’re talking about last night…” he added. “Why are you interested to know?” she cut in.

“I am that boy you’re talking about.”

She laughed. “Couldn’t be you.”

“My name is Tian Lo. My real name.”

She was shocked and looked at him. She couldn’t move. She took a deep breath, stood up and leave.

She hurriedly went to her room and locked herself up. “It couldn’t be him.” She said to herself many times trying to convince herself. Hours passed and she’s still out of herself. Suddenly, she remembered Tian Lo’s brown shinny eyes. “It’s him! B-but why? I mean how? I need to see him!” she hurriedly went off the bed and rushed to see Tian Lo.

He searched from him everywhere, and she saw him at the palace garden, she walks towards him, giving him a look with her eyes, shedding tears. She smiled at him, then she gave him a hug. “It’s really you!” she exclaimed. “You came back for me.” She added. It was love they both felt that night; a night of two hearts reconciled and two people madly in love and back in each other’s arms.

Meanwhile, Chun Ming and Jin Ho are having this conversation. It’s about the status of their empire. China’s fall.

“I guess you know what’s happening to your empire right now,” Chun Ming said.

“There’s nothing I can do.” Jin Ho replied.

“Nothing? So you are just going to watch everything you’ve done slowly immersed.” “Make your daughter marry Ban’s first born.”

“What? Are you out of your mind? Risking my own child for my personal responsibilities?”

“Ban will help you clean your mess! The mess you’ve created by doing such actions from the day your wife left you! If you just listened to me and didn’t approve that divorce, you wouldn’t be that miserable!”

“I will pay for such actions, I am the one responsible cleaning that mess! Not my child.”

“Daughters do. Remember Yuan? When you married Li’s daughter, everything was arranged. She’ll get use to it. Think twice Jin Ho. Think wise.”